Saturday, May 24, 2008
otak buntu seh tak tau apa nak buat,
every time during off days, frist think aku fikirkan = nak jumpa fis..
aku ni one kind, selalu nak jumpa matahair..
i always try to see my girl whenever i had the chance..
tak lupa kawan ah.. after my pervious relationship with syimah,
i noticed i had negleceted my friends.. from then on i had change n try to
meet them as well, of course whenever i could.. but the fact of me seeing my girl still remains..
everytime aku off duty t i try see if i could meet her.. especially on weekends, friday night n such..
i dun mind waiting at home on friday when i am off duty coz at night i look forward to seeing her..
but the fact n the kind of job that designers have is quite a slap on the cheek..
no such thing as 9 to 6 job although it does say so in the contract, we clock off when we are "finished"
so its a variable to when we finish work.. crap, all making me thinking of persuing that line after ord..
nowadays theres much projects that my girl have at hand, i understand that she is quite busy..
sumtimes i would fetch her n send her home even after midnight.. i willingly do it every now n then..
my work is also quite demanding as well, inspite of saving others, i need to save myself too..
2 days 2 off, so what, it sounds nice till u r sick of it.. coz sumtimes it could fall on both sunday n sat..
tat really sucks big time, so when i have off on sat or sunday, it would be damn precious..
most of the thing i would think of is, tat is the most precious day that i would set aside for my girl..
okay, even at night time, i would try fetch her on weekdays too but, it would be a jiffy, meeting up after office
hours on a weekday, r u kidding, tats very short to spend quality time together..
even my bike prac ar put on hold so as to meet her timing.. its been quite a while since i took any prac lessons..
sucks but i had it.. i cant wait for nice timing for me to take prac, now it will be pushed forward as i only have a few months
till my membership expires.. it really sucks big time, ns pay isnt tat great, cant afford to do supid things..
i have this calander with me, its like a diary, usually my empty slots on weekdays, i try fitting my friends in it..
luckly most of my friends are like me, having some off days during weekdays, tats a swee thing man..
imagine if even my friends are woking like the normal 9 to 6, 5 days a week kind of job, then this ns life would be a damn long one..
i seriously need to do some damage control.. theres too much time tat i had wasted doing nothing..
time rested are too much.. fun isnt sumthing tat i had in a very long time..
no long huggs kisses or more sweet memories that i could add up to my soul.. theres lesser.. i am finding more.. hoping n praying for more good days to come.. fis told me that next year she will be going for bangkok, she is happy about it..
i myself had never boarded a plan, nvr saw the big clouds underneath the wings of a plane.. nvr been around that much,..
i am happy for her, but who is happy for me? i had not been on holidays for a very long time, we are talking about years now..
its been really long time.. well she is following her aunty family there, her cousions are there.. ok ar but i kinda dislike it from one point coz i dunno i am not good with expressing myself with words.. i prefer her to go with her own family on vacation, tat would make my heart at ease.. haiss.. no holiday tat i m looking forward to.. only counting the months till i break free of this ns thing.. living day to day as it is, trying to make things fill my days.. what i could do is nothing more than just planning for my future, after ord, months before ord, but nothing much really comes when i want to have fun or sumthing.. i really want to have sum fun once in a while, i feel like i am in a prison of my own.. maybe i think too much.. but i dunno.. i have to at least make my life worth while..
Saturday, May 24, 2008
otak buntu seh tak tau apa nak buat,
every time during off days, frist think aku fikirkan = nak jumpa fis..
aku ni one kind, selalu nak jumpa matahair..
i always try to see my girl whenever i had the chance..
tak lupa kawan ah.. after my pervious relationship with syimah,
i noticed i had negleceted my friends.. from then on i had change n try to
meet them as well, of course whenever i could.. but the fact of me seeing my girl still remains..
everytime aku off duty t i try see if i could meet her.. especially on weekends, friday night n such..
i dun mind waiting at home on friday when i am off duty coz at night i look forward to seeing her..
but the fact n the kind of job that designers have is quite a slap on the cheek..
no such thing as 9 to 6 job although it does say so in the contract, we clock off when we are "finished"
so its a variable to when we finish work.. crap, all making me thinking of persuing that line after ord..
nowadays theres much projects that my girl have at hand, i understand that she is quite busy..
sumtimes i would fetch her n send her home even after midnight.. i willingly do it every now n then..
my work is also quite demanding as well, inspite of saving others, i need to save myself too..
2 days 2 off, so what, it sounds nice till u r sick of it.. coz sumtimes it could fall on both sunday n sat..
tat really sucks big time, so when i have off on sat or sunday, it would be damn precious..
most of the thing i would think of is, tat is the most precious day that i would set aside for my girl..
okay, even at night time, i would try fetch her on weekdays too but, it would be a jiffy, meeting up after office
hours on a weekday, r u kidding, tats very short to spend quality time together..
even my bike prac ar put on hold so as to meet her timing.. its been quite a while since i took any prac lessons..
sucks but i had it.. i cant wait for nice timing for me to take prac, now it will be pushed forward as i only have a few months
till my membership expires.. it really sucks big time, ns pay isnt tat great, cant afford to do supid things..
i have this calander with me, its like a diary, usually my empty slots on weekdays, i try fitting my friends in it..
luckly most of my friends are like me, having some off days during weekdays, tats a swee thing man..
imagine if even my friends are woking like the normal 9 to 6, 5 days a week kind of job, then this ns life would be a damn long one..
i seriously need to do some damage control.. theres too much time tat i had wasted doing nothing..
time rested are too much.. fun isnt sumthing tat i had in a very long time..
no long huggs kisses or more sweet memories that i could add up to my soul.. theres lesser.. i am finding more.. hoping n praying for more good days to come.. fis told me that next year she will be going for bangkok, she is happy about it..
i myself had never boarded a plan, nvr saw the big clouds underneath the wings of a plane.. nvr been around that much,..
i am happy for her, but who is happy for me? i had not been on holidays for a very long time, we are talking about years now..
its been really long time.. well she is following her aunty family there, her cousions are there.. ok ar but i kinda dislike it from one point coz i dunno i am not good with expressing myself with words.. i prefer her to go with her own family on vacation, tat would make my heart at ease.. haiss.. no holiday tat i m looking forward to.. only counting the months till i break free of this ns thing.. living day to day as it is, trying to make things fill my days.. what i could do is nothing more than just planning for my future, after ord, months before ord, but nothing much really comes when i want to have fun or sumthing.. i really want to have sum fun once in a while, i feel like i am in a prison of my own.. maybe i think too much.. but i dunno.. i have to at least make my life worth while..
Hi there',I am Lihin